“Love has its twists and turns.
It leaves you pain but teaches you to learn.
Even if takes you to wait for so long,
Love will always take you to where you belong”.
The quote above inspires me to write a short story about a journey on love. That quotes comes from someone name “Chinamoon99”. Chinamoon99 is the author/writer of a short story entitled “A Journey on Love” which I mentioned a while ago.
Indeed! Love has lots of twists and turns just like the hands of clock inside my room. In just a minute or even just a second, twists and turns may occur, happy and sad once. But, whatever that twists and turns are we should face it with a hope that love will always take us to where we belong. We learn from the pains cause by loving someone. We became strong out of that pain. To act like a fool in love is a matter of choice right? Well, readers’ will you consider me a fool in love or condemn me for being a dupe after you’ve read this story? It is at your discretion.
Loving someone is a crucial thing for me before. I insist that love is just a feeling that will turn you to act like a fool. However, as I grew up I see love in a manner that the quotes above tell it so. He was just a classmate of my dear friend. I consider him a half-baked happy go lucky lad. The first time I seen him is during the acquaintance party. He presented an intermission number from his year level. He sings well but performed unpleasantly. I even consider him boastful. Anyway that is just my first impression towards him.
Suddenly twist occurred unexpectedly. That impression becomes a melody into my ears. We became friends or should I say best of friends? We laugh, we giggle, we sing together. We play guitar together, we tease each other and we shared moments together. I could not forget the moment he open the book of his life to me. He cries while uttering those words of distress and pain to his mother. I may never know how painful it is for him but I know he needs someone to lean on. He needs a friend not only in prosperity but also in adversity. I don’t know if that friend is me but still I offer him my hands full of comfort, love and care. That’s the beginning of our peculiar friendship.
A text message says that friends did not celebrate monthsary but we did. We also have theme song and a term of endearment. There’s also a ring that signifies our friendship. He wrote a song for me which really flattering. He gave me a flower vase with 3 roses and a jacket that warmth’s my coldest night and day. This recently concluded graduation day he gave a stuff toy and he named it “ROHAN”. Did you know that we’re planning to baptize that stuff toy to legalize the name he gave? We’re really sweet when we’re together. Many presume we’re boyfriend and girlfriend but we’re not. He had his girlfriend and I have my boyfriend. However, we both have oceans a part relationship.
Our friendship dig with love, care, trust and understanding became stronger. He’s attitude is unpredictable and his really naughty, but he is sweet very very sweet that’s why I called him “my unpredictable sweet naughty best friend”. Sometimes I wonder why he acted so sweet to me and why he get jealous from my other friends and even to my boyfriend. Admittedly, I get jealous too. When he used our term of endearment to someone in his past I really get mad and jealous. For me that term of endearment is only meant for us not for anybody. It’s sacred and it is our password so why does he need to use it to somebody.
He had his girlfriend abroad. He even calls that girl “asawa”. I had my boyfriend somewhere in Cebu. We broke up for 2 years and became steady once again. However, that second chance I gave for my boyfriend just brought me insane. Honestly, I only gave my boyfriend a second chance but I assure I did not love him the second time. I just feel pity for him of keep on courting me. If I were to choose for that moment between friendship and love I would chose friendship for I know despite everything my friends most especially my best friend will not leave me in distress!
My best friend and his so called “asawa” had a promise with each other. Sometimes I felt envy with his so called “asawa” because she’s really fortunate to have my best friend. She’s lucky because I know my best friend loves her so much. Though I never meet my best friends’ girlfriend, through his stories I felt that his girlfriend is also faithful to him. Sometimes in my illusions I consider my best friend as my boyfriend. I know my best friend will not love me more than a friend because he truly loves his so called “asawa”. Well in my side, of course if I had a choice to love someone as my boyfriend that would be my friend or my best friend.
For the past months, our friendship was proven stronger by lots of problems, misunderstanding and pity quarrels between us. However, in just forty winks, things started to change. A kiss from him is the key that opens another door for a new turn of relationship between us. He admitted his real feelings towards me. All of a sudden he had loved me more than a friend. That moment signals the inner being of me to think and throw all my misconceptions on the scene but then out of the blue I see my defenses against him melting. I don’t know where to look for a word that could answer his words. It’s not that I did not love him the way he used too but it’s because I never expected to hear those words from him. I could not utter any words of anger and so I just brace myself and laugh to cover up “my kilig moment”?
Now we’re steady. However, still I am confused about his feelings towards me. I doubt if he really loved me and if he does not love his so called “asawa” anymore. It’s really crucial for me and it will really hurt. I never loved him this way before until the moment he revealed his feelings on me. I guess, I love him that very much. I’m willing to give my full comfort, love, trusts and understanding to him despite all my confusions. I must accept if he does not love me the way I love him because from the start I know my love to him is just a chasing rainbow. I think I just borrow love from him and from his so called “asawa”. When time comes, the love that was lent to me should be set free and I will return it to its origin, to where it really belongs. Though it’s painful but I have to accept. Maybe there’s someone out there who deserves my love and that is meant for me. I just wish he is that someone but all is just building castles in air.